the motorcycle diaries

chim + shup + fuzz + jo | the softballer, tennis player, councillor and judoka | (wannabe) girl jocks | 03a15 hwachonggg | arty farty humanz | travel HK | cycle pasir ris | dinner anywhere | what we have in common - our restlessness, our impassioned spirits, and a love for the open road

Friday, January 30, 2009

somehow got into the scariest seminar of all time. all-or-nothing here we go.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i didn't realize how screwed up my knee is until today. approaching 3 weeks and i still can't raise or bend my leg. going for an MRI next week - hoping like hell that i won't need surgery, but the odds are not good =(

ok whine over. i'm stronger mentally than this. it's just that i fully realized today at the hospital how long recovery's going to take and that i may not be able to do all the sporty/outdoorsy stuff i love for a really long while. was rather devastated. but i'll learn patience, as ian told me.

very tempted to take the easiest classes i can find.

weakness! must be strong!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

took my first step outside today in 2 weeks - i'll never complain about others walking too slowly again.

feeling very lost-in-translationish, after 2 weeks of luxuriating in nina-simoneness. emobummer.

i can't believe how i'm indulging in mind-drifting now with a huge paper hanging over my head. i've lost all semblance of structure, and boy does it feel good. i dream of nights of conversation along the charles river or in the T-stations, of racing from square to square in boston until dawn breaks at the harbor, of lying in the old yard or on the steps of widener with a kindred spirit. why all at night? when i think of san francisco/berkeley i can feel the californian light.

Friday, January 23, 2009

what's the next adventure going to be?

They danced down the streets like dingledodies, and I shambled after as I've been doing all my life after people who interest me, because the only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!"
--Kerouac


never felt more alive than when he was interrogating me and we realized we were of the same mold, liable to pack and go anytime, anywhere. was so tired and listless last night, wishing to be left alone to grieve. the next day, and i'm raring to go again, to create more in-the-moment pictures, to just color the world the way my spirit feels it should be!

Kerouac's for him. 3 years ago, when we hiked in SF and found the museum and he told me i should read on the road and i'd no idea then that i'll move so far away from that over-protected fearful girl. what did this book mean to him?

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

that's it i've had enough of convalescence, as fun as it has been. can't wait for classes to begin, even though it still takes me 5 min to get to my door without my brace.

Friday, January 16, 2009

more bad news! this time it's really serious, but for two dear friends far away, so i can't do anything but feel sad now. i've lost all motivation to do work, with the stuff that's been going on. no idea how i'm going to graduate at this rate, but who cares anymore?

i'm super paranoid now, so let me just tell you, shup fuzzy jo (don't think she comes here anymore), that i love you all very much and you guys make me feel less lonely even when we don't communicate for a month. cos i stupidly take for granted that you'll be there, somewhere.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Just in time

Before you came my time was running low oh baby
I was lost the losing dice were tossed
My bridges all crossed nowhere to go
Now you hear now I know just where I’m going
No more doubt of fear I’ve found my way
For love came just in time you’ve found me just in time
And changed my lonely nights and changed my lonely nights
And changed my lonely nights and changed my lonely nights
And changed my lonely nights that lucky day

someone triggered off the memory of this song from
before sunset,but he's not related in the way the
song suggests. maybe it's the endorphins from the
pain, but i feel a lot of love now, both from and
for the world! or maybe it's the intruders.
grin.

Monday, January 12, 2009

the upshot of all this pain is i'm getting to know the friends made last year VERY well. it's 4am and 2 are camping out in my floor's lounge. it'll be weird when i'm healed and classes begin and i won't have this effortless access to people who matter to me!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

fractured my knee, going to be out of action for a while. and exams/final papers haven't really begun!
 
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