merry xmas my cheeky eurotripping girls! <3

jo: i'll be in london 12 jan very sorry about the everchanging plans! taking the eurolines coach from paris, arriving at 6am i think.. will you be having an exam that day? i'm thinking of getting to oxford by late afternoon that day.. ehh follow fuzzy to prague!

Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the center cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight: somewhere in the sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again; but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

- W. B. Yeats

shups, think you'll like the essays in "Slouching Towards Bethlehem" by Joan Didion. I'll pass it to you next yr or you can try getting it from a library, about the golden state of California in the 1960s, you've probably visited many of the places mentioned in the book.

i'm glad we went to death valley/LA, got several things off my heart, came crashing down the week after, and now, there's a throbbing urge to make something out of the current emptiness, and settle the dust of restlessunthinkingunreflecting searching. somewhat related to what i confessed to you shup, but broader than that i guess, seems like i just needed to tell that something which has been too stupidly oppresive to you and now the feeling's gone/dead. i can't figure out why myself, it's probably part of the shifting nature of everything that's draining energy but not adding fulfilment now.

don't think being restless is a bad thing, but too much probably = hollowness.

on a more frivolous note, i vow not to buy anything in europe that isn't necessary for my physical survival, ie shopping has been sucking up too much $$$, and it's another way of chasing a life that leads nowhere but a sinking hole.

disneyland

I went to The Happiest Place on Earth yesterday.

And met Meanie Genie whom we had to chase and literally beg for a picture.

Being a Meanie, he granted no wishes obviously. He did, however, whisper pearls of wisdom ( inGENIEty if you prefer) into my ear when he thought none of the kids around were listening- the secret to longevity is to guard your heart selfishly. and that was meant specially for me, and no one else.

oh chim oh chim.
i could tell.
and i guessed it was coming.