sadly the kind of movies i've been watching is highly dubious. and someone complained about my professor to the chancellor and he was v pissed off. lectured to us about scholarly creeds and made sarcastic disclaimers before showing us a drag queen pageant. i love my ear stud-bearing, tattoo-adorned, tight pants and leather jacket-clothed, fantastically groomed bodied professor. so much spunk.

aiyoh. have you guys ever felt that the closer you get to someone the worse you treat that person? i'm spiralling into contradictory defiance for the sake of it, cos somehow i recoil from closeness at the start. if the relationship survives past my barely-concealed super-irrational meanness then it's set for life. but this time, feels like it's getting out of hand and i don't want it to. this doesn't apply to you all in the past i think. i hope not at least. maybe i'm just getting nastier. i told that friend that i'm not an innately nice person but i try damn hard to be one. losing steam maybe. argh...er did any of you ever think that i was mean to you at a certain stage? in the spirit of confucian moral humility i will kowtow to you if so and pledge to make up for it.

econ survey: if you had the choice of receiving money now or this time next yr which would you choose?

going to be busy this week, spending 3 days at the hilton hotel in sf for a conference! then off to nyc. so shup, decide and tell me! then i can fantasise what we'll do together if you come over to the west coast next sem and visit and set it in stone on this blog. and fuzzy, yay. can email me the dates that you said you'll be at the orphanage? then i can apply for the same time period too. thanks. and jo! heh you must treat me to drinks if you're treating my brother. cannot discriminate against the older chim, small chim must give way to older chim. can't wait for our session of getting wasted with him and you. my roommate wants to compete with me in a vodka-shot contest. wah. hope i don't die.

k. love you all.