happy new year too
hola!
i'm back in berkeley, will be setting out for vegas and grand canyon tomorrow. peru was... don't have the words for it yet. very tired now, actually wishing for some personal time instead of a roadtrip. have been wanting some time alone since finals ended but was whooshed away to peru and meeting and being with a bunch of essentially strangers. still don't have the words for the trip. too many thoughts crowding up the heart. it was a good trip though, very jarring to the senses and the spirit.
very tired lah. haven't chilled out since a month ago? and my first conversations of the year with my mom made me feel very alien. how am i going to pick up the pieces of my old life when i finally go back?
urban alienation. everything around is moving so quickly, i don't know myself anymore, cos i've lost all my familiar points of references. ever felt this way?
shup, you're a gem, keep those smiles coming. don't worry too much about being individualistic when you play tennis. it's tough having to think about the greater group all the time i guess. we try. but no shame in wanting to play for yourself. enjoy the adrenaline of competition! good luck girl, whack the hell out of the world.
fauziah and jo, really haven't heard from you two. except for an occasional hello! from fuzzy, you two have been very stealthy man. i hope you two had loads of fun in spain seeing beautiful things and not getting into too much trouble.
i'm thankful for what i have, feel very undeserving at times, but there's always a but. i'm finding it hard to pinpoint happiness right now. finding myself grasping after it, desperately attaching it to whatever i can. what happened to simple, spontaneous joy that used to fill my heart naturally.
very ugh right now, withdrawing terribly into my secret shell.
i will be exuberant tomorrow. ugh.
i'm not ready to go home. i will never be ready to go home. if i could i wouldn't go back to singapore till my uni years are up. then there'll be a clean break between my old and my new lives. but life's hardly ever that neat.
vegas, here i come. maybe i'll get a new identity there. vegas, give me another skin.
so happy new year guys.
may 2006 be as eventful as 2005.
may we find out what we want.
i'm back in berkeley, will be setting out for vegas and grand canyon tomorrow. peru was... don't have the words for it yet. very tired now, actually wishing for some personal time instead of a roadtrip. have been wanting some time alone since finals ended but was whooshed away to peru and meeting and being with a bunch of essentially strangers. still don't have the words for the trip. too many thoughts crowding up the heart. it was a good trip though, very jarring to the senses and the spirit.
very tired lah. haven't chilled out since a month ago? and my first conversations of the year with my mom made me feel very alien. how am i going to pick up the pieces of my old life when i finally go back?
urban alienation. everything around is moving so quickly, i don't know myself anymore, cos i've lost all my familiar points of references. ever felt this way?
shup, you're a gem, keep those smiles coming. don't worry too much about being individualistic when you play tennis. it's tough having to think about the greater group all the time i guess. we try. but no shame in wanting to play for yourself. enjoy the adrenaline of competition! good luck girl, whack the hell out of the world.
fauziah and jo, really haven't heard from you two. except for an occasional hello! from fuzzy, you two have been very stealthy man. i hope you two had loads of fun in spain seeing beautiful things and not getting into too much trouble.
i'm thankful for what i have, feel very undeserving at times, but there's always a but. i'm finding it hard to pinpoint happiness right now. finding myself grasping after it, desperately attaching it to whatever i can. what happened to simple, spontaneous joy that used to fill my heart naturally.
very ugh right now, withdrawing terribly into my secret shell.
i will be exuberant tomorrow. ugh.
i'm not ready to go home. i will never be ready to go home. if i could i wouldn't go back to singapore till my uni years are up. then there'll be a clean break between my old and my new lives. but life's hardly ever that neat.
vegas, here i come. maybe i'll get a new identity there. vegas, give me another skin.
so happy new year guys.
may 2006 be as eventful as 2005.
may we find out what we want.
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