Sheesh deleted stupid photo by mistake, it was evidence of Fuzzy grinning evilly while i was suffering. will try another time. but for your entertainment, the guys and i at heldenplatz, vienna, horsing around. we were trying to imitate the amazing twin horse statues in the plaza i think, but turned out like crazy ghosts:

can't put the trip into words yet. 3.5 weeks on the move! in a world that i never knew could exist in this age. the more i travel the more i know i don't know. that doesn't make sense.

but doesn't matter, i'm happy, learning to accept that which i can't change yet, but still wishing for the courage to change what i can, and the wisdom to tell the two apart =( essentially a happy lazydazy start to the semester, except that my ex-roomie's pressuring me like crazy to pledge for her honors society (pseudo-frat), and i didn't factor it into my plans for this sem at all. i've applied for other stuff, no idea how they'll turn out, but interviews for the frat are this fri! how how how? i hate disappointing people =( but i resolved not to do anything this sem that i've no passion for, cos i'm tired of searching aimlessly in the name of trying new things =( and also to do whatever i do WELL. i'll show you guys my final schedule when everything's confirmed, no more messy life. arghhh am i/are we becoming bridget jonesy??? shit we're turning 21. sounds unreal, yet don't feel that we're schoolgirls anymore ( as discussed with fuzzy?).

i swear i'll reply to your email soon shu ping, and jo, have you got my note?? little chim's going to london this or next weekend i think, you can bully him then.

(thank you all for helping me get over that very bad last semester, still feel slightly insecure, but much better, don't think i could have survived without you guys. europe kind of knocked some sense back too, all that rushing around and screwups made it hard for self-pity. so shups, getting out of a claustrophobic world may be helpful to ease hurting sometimes, even though or maybe because it involves calling on more inner strength..)

i cooked! and didn't kill my housemates two days on. i'm certified to cook for you'll now =) oh yeah and jo i got my driving license already! sorry i can't learn with you in singapore, but there's still fuzzy and shups.